I only can express it this way, well, I am really suck in expressing myself.
I think most of people around me will think that I am just a careless person who actually do not care about things happening on time as most of the time I always said " nevermind ", " I don't care " etc... They became words that I speak out easily...
Actually I care. Ya, I care, I do. I did not realize that it hurt so bad when I nearly fucked things up that night. Haha, well, I used to accept failure easily as they always come to me. But this time it was so different, I never knew that it actually meant a lot to me.
Maybe...
Ga Yao!
Haha, received this GaYao from RuiErn in the middle of work.Those cute McD emoticons are dancing. So cool~
Terima kasih ya. Haha.
RE Ultimatium
It was Rui Ern's Ultimate 21st Birthday celebration!I didnt prepare any present, haha, so bad.
Happy Birthday!
How will it ends?
It started badly on 11.08.2010 and I wonder how and when will it ends...
That night's traffic jam was a sign of bad things gonna happen I think.
Well, we started our shooting and bad things happened.
First, Puteri lost her car key. We stopped our shooting and searched for the key but we failed.
I sent her home and on the way back I got banged up from behind twice.
The worst was the 2 cars ran away.
See, this was how bad they banged me until my bonnet cannot close.
Another sad case was this lovely pair already broke up.
Oh god, please have mercy and send me some good luck. Thank you.
That night's traffic jam was a sign of bad things gonna happen I think.
Well, we started our shooting and bad things happened.First, Puteri lost her car key. We stopped our shooting and searched for the key but we failed.
I sent her home and on the way back I got banged up from behind twice.
The worst was the 2 cars ran away.
See, this was how bad they banged me until my bonnet cannot close.
Another sad case was this lovely pair already broke up.Oh god, please have mercy and send me some good luck. Thank you.
Another Wordshit~
Hmmm...
Getting better but not as good as before yet there are many things keep spinning in my head and I cant get them out...
I wish to talk... but who should I talk to? Who is willing to hear all the shit that I have? Yea, no one but that is ok for me, I just need you to be with me... No matter doing what... I just need your accompany because I start to hate being alone.
3 long years already... I changed a lot, I know. I just want to survive in this big city and keep working hard for better living. Hmmm... I came here with nothing 3 years ago... Now I am still not happy with what I am having and I feel empty... Sometimes I feel tired and exhausted... All those works really tiring. Maybe I should live like other students who just set their minds on study and enjoying the college life.
Everyone does wrong, so do I. I did some stupid things without thinking much and ended up regreting for what I have done. Haha, now I am busying cleaning my ass and clearing all the shit. I need some time... and more effort... Now I need to change again, to be more optimistic so that I will feel better even I am covered with shit.
God bless me please... I am sorry that I lost my faith... Sorry.
Getting better but not as good as before yet there are many things keep spinning in my head and I cant get them out...
I wish to talk... but who should I talk to? Who is willing to hear all the shit that I have? Yea, no one but that is ok for me, I just need you to be with me... No matter doing what... I just need your accompany because I start to hate being alone.
3 long years already... I changed a lot, I know. I just want to survive in this big city and keep working hard for better living. Hmmm... I came here with nothing 3 years ago... Now I am still not happy with what I am having and I feel empty... Sometimes I feel tired and exhausted... All those works really tiring. Maybe I should live like other students who just set their minds on study and enjoying the college life.
Everyone does wrong, so do I. I did some stupid things without thinking much and ended up regreting for what I have done. Haha, now I am busying cleaning my ass and clearing all the shit. I need some time... and more effort... Now I need to change again, to be more optimistic so that I will feel better even I am covered with shit.
God bless me please... I am sorry that I lost my faith... Sorry.
The Suffering
These few months... It has been hard time for me.
My dream is vanished, hope is gone and I lost my fighting spirit to move on.
Well, I think I should rest and be gone to find a way to recover. But I have a thought in mind.
Everyone has the right to do what they want to do, pursue their happiness, and even chase their dreams... Right? Maybe you just doing your job but why you gonna stop me from doing mine? I believe that you too have your dream and you go through anything to get what you wanna get, who got the right to stop you? NOBODY! Nobody has the right to say NO and stop you from being what you wanna be and doing what you wanna do.
Maybe those dreams of mine look like shit for you but you do not see the potentials behind... You think you have done the right thing? No, you are not, you do not know how far we can reach and you underestimate our capabilities... Anyway, thank you, I'll just move on.
My dream is vanished, hope is gone and I lost my fighting spirit to move on.
Well, I think I should rest and be gone to find a way to recover. But I have a thought in mind.
Everyone has the right to do what they want to do, pursue their happiness, and even chase their dreams... Right? Maybe you just doing your job but why you gonna stop me from doing mine? I believe that you too have your dream and you go through anything to get what you wanna get, who got the right to stop you? NOBODY! Nobody has the right to say NO and stop you from being what you wanna be and doing what you wanna do.
Maybe those dreams of mine look like shit for you but you do not see the potentials behind... You think you have done the right thing? No, you are not, you do not know how far we can reach and you underestimate our capabilities... Anyway, thank you, I'll just move on.
The best day of September
September 13th - A good day.
We supposed to meet up on 10 morning but we changed the time to 12 noon because of the rain. We met up and had our lunch at Kim Gary then moved to Jusco foodcourt to continue our discussion... Well, we came out with something but not 100% confirm because of some reasons. I'm not sure about the others as they less share out their feeling and thinking... For me, I have the confidence but I lost the faith. Till now, I understand that it is not easy to get the agreement from others and there are many issues that take place.
Hmmm... Dont care about that, just hope that we will do well this time.
From the end of August till now, my life is the same, working everyday non-stop...
Only free at night and I already way too tired to do any other thing... got some extra jobs which already out of my reach... Bah! I am lack of stamina!
Think of something... and I need a PLAN~ Hah! I sucks in planning and most of my plans failed! God bless me please~
After discussion, I sent YongPing back and went to Pavilion with YunnHorng. We were walking around without directions... thinking about what to eat for dinner... and we ended up at Subway. My first time trying Subway and I like it so much. Anyway, the 6.5 inches bread was not enough for me.. I need MORE!
We waited for Ella and then went for Resident Evil : Afterlife. I was fucked by a smelly Malay fucker... He sat beside me and I nearly turned into zombie by his god-damned shitty smells...
After movie... We went home and goodnight...
ATH-W1000X
ATH-W11JPNI love Michael Bublé
Yeah, I got Michael Bublé's albums, "It's Time" and "Call Me Irresponsible" and I love them very much. Arh! Michael Bublé's voice is so powerful. Now I dont listen to pop songs anymore and I start hunting for oldies. A simple reason is because most pop songs do not use real instruments. One of my favorites is "Feeling Good" which recorded in his "It's Time".Wahaha, I love Michael Bublé~ I love his voice~
Happy Friday
23rd of July, Friday, the first day of KLAV which located at Jw Marriott Hotel. Yeah! I have no specific title for this post so I name it Happy Friday. Haha, it was meant to be a happy day. This week is the 10th week of this semester and I accidentally skipped the whole week's classes.
First I went to Julia's house to fetch Julia and Ella. After that we headed to LowYat Plaza's Sushi Zanmai to have our lunch.
After lunch we went to the KLAV. There were so many companies and brand distributors. They did their demo in hotel rooms and it was a bit too packed and crowded because the rooms are too small to fit in the setups and people. Below are some ultimate setups which out of my affordability.
Below are my targets... I wish I could have...
- Ortofon EQ7
- Sonus Faber Toy
- Yamamoto HA-05
I'm Old
17th of July, we shoot our 3 minutes short film at Julia's house. Well, I will not reveal its story yet and I will publish it when it is ready. It is the day I become an old husband, daddy and granddaddy. I am 21 but I look terribly old! Arh!!!
Julia's make-ups.
My wife - Ah Lian.
My daughter.
My granddaughter.
My daughter and granddaughter.
Family photos... My wife is so young~
This is the bad boy who gave me a granddaughter~
Stay tune... The short film will be up soon~
Julia's make-ups.
My wife - Ah Lian.
My daughter.
My granddaughter.
My daughter and granddaughter.
Family photos... My wife is so young~
This is the bad boy who gave me a granddaughter~
Stay tune... The short film will be up soon~
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